Missy Jenn (✿_✿)

My Decision

2012-01-17T16:36:00.006+08:00

I am no more work at Intel as Customer Service for next month.

Don't misunderstand, I also not going to stay in OM.

I am going to KVC Industrial Supplies.

It's a listed company under a powerful group; ATIS Group.

They're doing the same thing as OM doing now. They are also a trading house but they're a stable company.

I'm going to work in OEM Department which all are girls even the HOD.

The staff there no one will work exceed 6 months as their boss are too tough.

I knew it must be very tough but of course I will try my best.

Worst to the worst, if I couldn't cope, just find other since I am still so young.

OM Sales Director keep on asking me not to leave.I have nothing but only time. I'm not going to show off, just telling the truth.

As a Sales Director and also a eldest brother of mine, he must know the reason why I am leaving.

Since you can't/won't solve my problem, then let me solve by myself. Let me go.

What for keep on asking me to stay? Just wanna make some dramatic in front of the other?

The eldest brother of mine no more. I mean he is not the brother that I know.

He totally not respect me and also his wife.

Dare she look down on me and said I am poor.

What The Hell is that??????

Come on, girl.

Who you think you are? You're just a lady that know nothing don't even have a better education and attitude.

I really curious why this kind of attitude still got people will marry and live until now.

The question marks all over my head.

P/S: I promise I will never respect a lady like you no matter who you are. So what if you're

my sis-in-law? SO WHAT?????????

I'm at the cross road.

2012-01-06T01:14:00.004+08:00

I'm lost of direction.
No one understand how I feel.

I can't work with the career that I like caused of some purpose.

I feel regret to leave my company; OM.

I like this job, I do enjoy while working.

But I am going to leave at the end of this month.

Going to work at Intel as Customer Service.

No one support me but they never know the situation that I am facing right now.

Seriously I scare too.

The pay of the new company that I am going to join slightly higher compared to my existing pay.

But no more claim. My expenses might be higher; this is what I am still considering.

I hate myself. When there is some turbulent that I face, I used to cry.

Come on, girl. Cry won't help you anything.

STOP crying please. Your tears really piss me off.

Anyway, I have made my decision.

Wish everything will going smoothly.

The Voice From My Heart

2011-12-27T22:23:00.003+08:00

I'm stress caused of my career.
I'm Tension. It's driving me crazy.

I used to pursuit myself that everyone feel the same to makes myself feel better.

I was unable to cope with the situation I'm in right now.

I'm feel so bad.

As the unfortunate tragedy happened in Thailand, most of the factory were affected as well as our sales.

And this become my reason; excuses for myself.

I know I shouldn't be.

I want to study hard as my first semester will start on Jan 2012.

5 years to go.

I want to be an educated person so that the degree holders will not look down on me.

I want to change my mind set, my thinking ant etc.

Yes!!!! I'm ready for WAR!!!!!!!!!! COME ON!!!!!!!!

20th Birthday

2011-12-13T02:22:00.000+08:00

The most ever meaningless birthday of mine.

I don't know how should i describe my Birthday.

I requested my BELEN to buy me a cake.

I asked them to celebrate with me.

I knew I'm shameless.

As usual continue working on my Birthday.

Going for movie and dinner with Bro and Family after work.

I expect at least be a lil different with the life style as how i used to be.

But NO. Caused of my expectation, i was disappointed.

I don't like the feeling when there is a hope but dissatisfied.

12/12/2011

My tear drops for 3 times as I'm upset.

I got no one.

I have to be tough.

I can make it through the rain.

Timeless

2011-09-06T11:54:00.007+08:00

As time passes. I'hv worked for about 9 months.

As time passes. My sister going to give birth soon.
As time passes. I am 20 soon.

Everything was changed.

The long hair was no more mine.
The best friends was no longer best of mine.
The feeling of mine was no more for me.The little girl was no more a girl.
*Everything happened within a year.*

Now I believe that sometimes some words are really hard to speak out from our mouth.
I am not wish it to be but what i able to do is just let it be.
Just like your lover going to leave and you're unable to do anything even you love him/her very much.

People will live happier with their mind wider.
Yeah. I am to be.

The sun rises , the sun falls
A little boy , and old man
A little girl , and old woman

The moon is full , the stars shine brightly
Second become , minutes become
Hours become , days become
Years become a lifetime.

New look of mine. I like it !!!

Mom , Stephanie, Jessie and Me at Sunway.

It's a happy night for me.

See... We Laugh so happy.

<3 <3 <3

I Want To Get Married !!!

2011-04-28T09:07:00.003+08:00

A good news to tell here.

Jessie Ng Chew Fang is going to get married soon.

She was pregnant. :)

So happy to hear that.

Nothing to be shocked as they had dating for more than 8 years.

Congratulation, sista.

Of course I am the bridesmaid. :p

So excited.

While I'm looking at here, can feel the inner shine from her.

Now i believe.

A lady looks different when wore the wedding dress.

A type of indescribable beauty on her.

I told myself : "I wanna get married before 28."

But no point also if i couldn't find the brooms. :(

Ideal wedding theme. <3

Hey Mr.X , remember I wanted it to be like that. :p

P/s: I wanna , I wanna, I wanna get married. Aaaarrrrrggggghhhhhh.

The Working Day Of Mine

2011-03-08T17:14:00.003+08:00

I got a lil bored of sitting in front of my Delly.

I need to motivate myself.

Come On , girl......

"Don't you forgotten what you promised yourself?"

Yeah. I remember. I will achieve what i aimed for.

By the way, see what I'hv done.

How good if there's my real eyelash. :P

I am a good girl. Respect me pls. TQ

Love this the most. Look Sexy B***H.

Photo Tells A Story

2011-03-03T13:41:00.006+08:00

Photo might tell us whether i'm doing good or not. :)

How was it?

Am i doing good?

My point not to show off that i'm doing well here.

You're very happy or sad with your life, need no to report or show to other.

Well, actually i want to show that i'm get.................

P/S : This is how i behave. S.H.A.M.E.L.E.S.S.

As How I Thought

2011-02-24T12:34:00.003+08:00

Our STPM result released last two days; 21 Feb 2011.

Of course i took it.

As what i expected.

1 Fail. Credit for the remaining subject.

You know what?

I failed Mathematics.

GOSH~~~~ It's MATH.

I thought i can do it; at least got a lil pointer.

On the other hand, i thought i'll fail for my Chemistry and Physics.

Who knows i got credit on both of it.

1.42 this is what the paper show me.

Valerie, she got quite a bad result which only 0.83.

She couldn't get a certificate as do as Xue Er.

For me, i never regret or even blame on anyone.

I have to take this responsibility.

For now, i'hv decide.

I better concentrate more on my career.

It's time to say goodbye to the stupid books and so the school.

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I had work for this company for one and a half month.

I quite enjoy the job that i'm doing now.

So freedom but surely a lil bit pressure.

I want to show my result to them.

To them that look down on low education people.

I want them swallow back their words.

P/S: I'm trying very hard now. I need some time.

The Officially First Day Of Mine

2011-01-17T15:39:00.006+08:00

Today is the first day i'm officially working at Om Motion & Control Sdn. Bhd.
I worked as a Sales Assistant.
As i don't have any experience, i have to stay at the office and study the product that i'm going to sell and understand the flow of the company.
Last week, i'm out station with my branch manager to KL and JB.
I thought it must be very interesting.
YES.. It's interesting.
But then tiring more than interesting.
Slept for 4 hours everyday, travel here and there.
Well, i knew alot.
I can see the skill to communicate with strangers and how to pull closer the distance between one another.
I'm the youngest in sales department.
Most of them are married and some have children some more.
Should i be happy or sad?
Gosh...!

Now, i'm doing some revision about the products that i'm going to sell soon.
Going to present to my Manager on this coming Wednesday.
I got the confidence.

P/S : I'm going to achieve the achievement that i'hv set for myself in the shortest time.

My Arse

2010-11-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

I was being good manner greeting someone a happy birthday.
But God dont know, good manner costs me the word "BITCH"!
I swear to God by my name, I did not intend to flirt with this guy.
But the so-called girlfriend just texted and humiliated me with the harsh words.
Hello girl, this post is for you. Or your friend as well. Whatsoever. Listen here...
I was NEARLY in a relationship with your lovely boyfriend.
He came all the way from Penang to Alor Setar, just to surprise me.
Not believing in me huh? I have alot of witness.
Then, he came to my school, just to chit-chat, a few words with me. Then leave.
I am a girl, I have feelings, and I was touched!
Again, he came all the way from his hometown. To watch a two hour movie, with me. He pave the car door, for me.
Of course, he was being so gentleman. I was touched, AGAIN!
And he even kissed, my forehead in the cinema.
We're hand in hand, walked in the whole mall.
WTF, hello girl.
A guy came all the way, just for me.
What do you think, how I feel?
And there's a point, you should know.
We flirted when you both had a short broke up.
Why should I ignore him when he flirted me? Why should I be the one who step out?
You said I'd told everyone? You're well-known huh?
Who do you think you are? Amber Chia? Or Angelina Jolie?
My mouth is with me, I have my thought.
If you are scared that everyone would knew about me and him. Ask your boyfriend to buy a time machine. And turn back the time.
Me and him, it did happened! Accept it.
Wanna know why I did not ignore him?
Because he was so annoying, we'd even on the phone for hours.
Talking non-stop. Everyday. For so many days.
He flirted me, I flirt back.
What's the wrong? Tell me?
You scolded me fuck and bitch when you said you dont want to use any harsh words.
Then, you are clearly wasting your parents money.
Because you went to school as usual but without bringing your brain.
The word "BITCH" is a HARSH word! Bitch is a female dog, which clearly I am not one.
Miss, control your boyfriend.
Teach him to obey upon your demand.
Handcuffs and lock him up, swallow the key and keep it till you're death.
So that he wont walk around and being itchy with other ladies.
Now, thats what a bitch like you would do!
Why dont you sit down, have a relax talk with him. Asked what had happened between you and him.
Come on girl, give some air for your boyfriend to breath freely. He's dying upon your torture.
Ask yourself why, is he flirting with the other girls.
And, I am here to say.
I sent him a happy birthday text message, it is for manners.
Not flirt. Differentiate the differences, please!
Understand what had happened before acting and yelling like a boar.

p/s MOCK MY WORDS YOU BOAR, YOU MESS WITH MY LIFE. YOU WILL BE VERY TROUBLESOME. DONT BE CHILDISH, AND PLEASE BE AWAKE.

PLKN Tasoh Siri 6/2 Gathering

2010-10-25T23:30:00.006+08:00

Last few days, we have a gathering at Greenland Mc Donald.
Seriously, i'm appreciate the chance to gather together but other's not.
Well, only 10 of us there.
The funny thing is that we're gather on 11 pm.
What a lame gathering is this?
As Sou Sou purposely came back from Nilai, Inti for this gathering.
To show my sincere, i go by bus and Sou Sou fetch me there.
I am enjoy to talk and laugh with them ; Sou Sou and Benji.
We talked a lot.
We finished out gathering on 12 something.
I went to UPR to find him.
He bring me to VooDoo.
Honestly, i don't know the reason i go to meet him.
He with his friends and i'm bored sitting and standing there.
As some technical problem, i overnight at his house.
Guess what.
Only me and him.
What's going to happen?
SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But now, we have already make it clear.
He told me that he's not ready to be in a relationship.
Positive thinking, he's not ready.
Fact, i'm not his cup of tea.
It's good to be friend.
I can't imagine if i'm in a relationship with a sweet talker.
I am disguise sweet talker.
Sweet talker, please go away from me.
Honestly, i don't know i like him or not.
The feeling is considered as like?
Or because i'm empty now and simply like anyone?
*wondering*
Alright!
STOP here.
As everything had happen.
Not going to look back anymore.

P/S : I'm not upset or anything. Just feel EMPTY. I'm still feeling GOOD.! And i'm very happy can meet them all especially Xiao Tong.

I Miss THEM

2010-10-17T01:46:00.008+08:00

Last few days, i was webcam with Benson.
And he asked me to watch "Peter Chao's video" in Youtube.
He was damn annoy and the way he speak English was damn funny.
I love him.I mean i like the way he talked and the contains of the video.
Guess what, he's sun glass was Louis Vuittion.
The way he talk reminds me of someone.
Mr. Chicken.
I dreamed of him on that night.
He just like a clone of Mr.C.
I realize that actually i miss him.
Sometimes when i sat alone , driving alone or even lay on my bed, i think of him.
The way he entertained me and the way he care for me.
I still remember he said he'll commit if we're in a relationship.
And he promise not to rush as we going to take time to know each other more.
I know he won't be so faithful to his girlfriend.
But he makes me trust on him and definitely i have fallen for him.
Finally he's the one whom end everything up.
He have chosen to be with her.
I respect his decision.
Well, my besties told me not to have any relation with him as he'll hurt me in the end.
But I WANT.I believe that "We never try, We'll never know".

Everything Happened For A Reason

2010-10-13T19:09:00.005+08:00

Finally i have my time to update my blog now.
After sent mom to bus station, i have my fried chicken with Dydy.
While we eating, the electric current suddenly stop.
I can't take anymore as the weather was damn hot even at night.
When the time i came out, the electric current come again.
SHIT..!
It's playing me like a fool.

A lot of things happened within this few weeks.Last 2 weeks, Devon and i accidentally saw him.

After a few days, we realize that he wrote on the Facebook said that...

"Sometimes i saw they two people, i really gonna vomit, the feeling see them, is really very suffer, just want to say FUCK OFF, PLEASE."
Oh My Gosh..~
See his grammar.
Sux.
Both of us really don't understand why he do so.
We never step on his tail.Why he wanna step on us?
The comment below there mention our name some more.
Stated j n d .
We really can't think of other except both of us.
When the time i saw it, i feel HOT and SHY.
Angry is because he stepped on me.
I never do anything on him.Shy is because why my ex-boyfriend would say that to me?
I mean, why i ever have such boyfriend?
Shameless on me.
I dare not to tell my mom and other friends what had happened.
I know they'll laugh at me ; have such immature boyfriend.
After i broke with him, i never said anything bad on him.
Cause i wanna they leave the best memories of him.
Honestly, i don't want other look down on me.People asked me how he treated me?
I just smile i told them his advantages.
But then he....................................................?

Beside that, he ever told them about the things that damn privacy.
I warn him not to tell anyone.
But he do.
This guy..... I don't know should use what word to describe him.
A dirty guy that visit neighbour house more then his girlfriend house?Or a prostitute obsessed?

Well, i don't feel like wanna continue to talk about him.
I didn't feel like gonna vomit but only feel disgust.

Yesterday Vs. Today

2010-09-05T03:11:00.003+08:00

Last night, I message him.
I mean my Mr.X
I sent a forward message to him by using my new number.
He asked me who am i.
I told him that i am Jennifer.
I was damn nervous and scared that he ask me which Jennifer.
Fortunately he's not.
He still remember me.
I am just like over excited.
When my phone rang, my heartbeat increase like...................................
Well, then i asked him if he's good there.
He answered me and asked me back.
He was like so cool and don't have much thing to say.
Honestly, i am a little bit lazy going to find topic.
Finally we ended up with good night after several message.
Anyway, his several or even one message will makes me fly into the SKY.

About today.
It's the first day Birdy came back here from Johor.
Hmmm..
As today i got class for the whole afternoon, we didn't meet until night.
We went to Pizza Hut as i am went to celebrate Sue-Leen's birthday.
The sad things that happened today is that Devon lost her money.
RM100
She kept it in her purse and lost it without notice.
Well, we suspect a person.
But............................................
We can't do anything.
As a conclusion, going to forget about it.
Last but not least,

Cheer Up , darling...! muacx

The Quotes

2010-09-02T23:24:00.002+08:00

Just now went to help a friend of mine bought something for his girlfriend.
Quite a long time we didn't meet.
This makes the topic between us become less and less.
Unlike before.
Before, we can talk non-stop throughout the day.

Well, i earn a lot hang with him.
He told me a lot about my Mr.X which i didn't see him for such a long time.
As i know, he was different than before.
He climb so high now.
His status was much more higher than before.
The people beside him was no more like us.
Branded from the head to the toe.
How about me?
I'm still standing at the point, didn't even make any step.
The higher he climb, the wider the distance between me and him.
I don't hope he climb so high as i don't want the distance between us get wider and wider as the time goes by.
But i know he want to.
So.......
I wish him.

I Misssssssssssssssssss You.
I wanna TALK with you all night long.
I wanna TAKE PHOTO with you.
I wanna LOOK at you before i close my eyes.
I wanna HUG you as i do that night.
I want EVERYTHING about you.
I WANT YOU.

" If you love someone, tell them....
Broken hearts are often caused by UNSPOKEN words."

This quotes reminds me of him.
I wish i can shout out loud to him that I LOVE HIM.
But i couldn't.

I Have Gained 5 kg.

2010-09-01T23:17:00.004+08:00

DyDy came back here for few days.
Tomorrow he will going back to KL again.
He just like a machine which will entertain all of us here.
The time pass so fast , he at here.
Play around.
Just now i took him to a garden which quite far from my house, Alor Star Mall's Garden.
Hmmmm...
I wanna appreciate the time when i'm with him.
I wanna took as many photo as i could with him.

Well, after bring him for a walk, i went to aerobic class.
WHAT THE FUCK!!
It's killing me.
Damn tired and my whole body's muscle ache.
But i able to see my sweat just like i'm bathing.
Huuuhhhh...!!!
After the class, i went to weight my weight.
OMG...!
It's 60kg now.
FUCK FUCK FUCK....!!!!!!!!!!! (⋋▂⋌)
I was like speechless.
And my mom surely will keep on scold me all day long.
Aaaarrrrrssssshhhhh...!
I hate the way she said me.
I am pity myself why i'm so fat?
I hate to look at the mirror.
Just like a fatty standing in front of me.
Piss Off...!!!

You know what?
Gained 5kg within few weeks.
But it takes few years to loss it.
Hoooohhhhh!!!
Now the feeling of mine was damn complicated.
Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...............
Feels like i am useless to stay on this earth.
Makes this earth heavy to turn.

I wanna loss my weight.
THIN
THIN
THIN
THIN
THIN
THIN
THIN

❤Definitely Mr.X is my target.❤

Karoke Night

2010-08-19T01:06:00.005+08:00

Still the same, only me and Devon hang out.
Went to Bazaar and bought a lot of food.
We ate it all.
p/s: this is how i won't slim down.
Surely not only both of us went to sing K.
We search all our contact book to see who we can ask for hang out.
Finally we found it.
Jun Xiang and Jia Hao.
Hahahaha~
They work as a hair stylish here.
Went to sing K together.
Only four of us.
Well, for quite a long time i didn't hang out with them.
Of course i do enjoy it.
Since i can't stay outside for too late, i back earlier.
Haiz...
How much i wish that i could hang more time with them.
Its okay, Missy Jenn.
Nevermind , Nevermind , Nevermind.
I'll be fly on the sky soon.
Only 3 moths to go, my dear.
Just take it easy.
Muaccxxxx...
I LOVE YOU, Jenn Jenn ❤
You are the only one who i can lay all my love on you...

Sometimes i feel that i'm look quite CUTE

Missy DRY DRY

2010-08-17T00:09:00.007+08:00

Today is the second day my belen and dudes went back to Pg as they have finished their holidays.
Left Devon , Steven Khor and me at Alor Star.
Suddenly feel that i am so lonely.
Don't have much friends.
A lot of "Hi, Bye" friends.
But to find a friend that really can hang out is not easy.

Just now Devon went to De'Paris to do her manicure and pedicure.
After that we went to Times to have our dinner and pool.
Only both of us.
We do enjoy.
Laugh every words that came out from out mouths.
Even it is not funny.
Only both of us, i know that we do enjoy it.
Enjoy the fullest of us.

We talk a lot.
Sure love is one of our topic.
As a conclusion, GUY IS A ASSHOLE.
I strongly agree.
Maybe cause we're still single.
No idea.....!
And i also realise that actually i am a Miss of DRY.

DRY of love.
DRY of money.
Dry of skin.

So.............
I am Missy DRY...❤

p/s: Talking CRAP..

All of you are a JERK.

I Want Him ❤

2010-08-09T23:41:00.006+08:00

Just reached home from snooker.
Everyday snooker, this is how my life goes on.
Well, just now Diane and E'Heng went to Alor Star mall to buy their new house lamp.
And i was busy be Devon's driver.
They saw him, Mr.X
OMG~~~
I miss it.
I should go along with them.
Why didn't I?
They told me that he look much more handsome.
He changed his hair.
I didn't see him for a long long time already.
Just like a millions years.
Can you imagine how much i miss him?
Answer is infinity.
You know what, Heng said
If Lunny see him, sure will rape him.
This really makes me laugh out loud.
I will save him and kill Lunny if Lunny really do so to him.

p/s: I miss all my Mr especially Mr.X and except the si ayam.

Over Excited

2010-07-30T00:18:00.004+08:00

I am so happy today.
Don't know why.
Just feel so excited.
Laugh every now and then and done something very stupid.
Dancing in the public.
Never care how other look on us.
I just enjoy mine.
I wish my days will happy as today.

Well, i am wondering, quite a long time i didn't kiss with guy.
Miss the feeling of kiss.
Still remember kiss with him for whole night.
My longest record that i ever.
I love the kiss feeling with my lover.
Seems like i own him on that moment.
I am desperate for kissing.
But it doesn't mean that i would simply kiss with guy.
Must have the feeling for kissing before i do.
Mr.X......
OMG~~~~
If i do kiss with him, i swear i will never forget the feeling.
STOP dreaming, Jenn.
I-M-M-P-O-S-I-B-L-E
( i know this word )

I
Want
A
Sweet
Night
Kiss

Jennifer is Back

2010-07-24T00:41:00.002+08:00

Hmmm..
Today i'm feel quite okay.
Sleep until about 1 something.
So enjoy and appreciate it.
For how long i didn't sleep till so late.
Just now went to watch movie with two kent which is Kent and Ken Teoh.
Haha..
We watched The Sorcerers.
One of the disney movie.
After that we went to snooker with Samuel.
Today my performance not bad.
Finally went to Double plate with Samuel and Lunny.
Yeah...
And my point is said that, i am quite enjoy and happy today.
He finally didn't disturb my mood at all.
Even my phone not always ring like before, but i love it.
I mean i love the way i am, nowadays.
Keep it on, Jenn.

I Wanna Cry Out Loud

2010-07-22T00:18:00.003+08:00

Last night he just ask me to be his girlfriend.
We talk for quite long.
Finally end up with i didn't give him any answer.
I didn't say "Yes" or "No".
But honestly i don't think it's the time yet.
Even i have deeply fall for him.
Well, i planned to find him on this Friday.
Give him a surprise as my mom will going to my brother's house.

Just now afternoon he told me that his ex, Cindy will going to meet up with him.
Sure jealously upon me.
But i'm still nothing to him.
Not yet his girl.
I don't have the right stop him from doing.
He told me that we will not going.
I trust him.
Few hours ago, he text me.
Ask me not to contact him anymore as his not my type.
I was like........................
My mind blank.
I replied him " Why suddenly say that?"
Well, he honest to me.
Told me that he still has the feeling towards Cindy.
He thought i will be her replacement.
But couldn't.
That moment, i heard the sound of my broken heart.
So pain.
Unbelievable.
I wanna hear he say that from his mouth.
How much i hope that the one text to me not him.
But i have to accept the fact.

"He got back his girlfriend.
They get back together.
And i being left by him."

This is what i told myself.
I lye on my bed and look at the mirror.
Tried to smile.
The smile from my face is the ugliest smile that i ever seen.
I looked at my eyes, my eyebrow, my nose and my mouth.
I felt pity on myself.
And my heart was like so uncomfortable.
He was the one who makes me fall for him.
Now he's the one who kick me away.
What am i to him?
A spare tyre?
When Cindy left him, he come and flirt to me.
When the time she want him back, he kick me away.
What the hell was going on?
Am i a ball?
Or a rubbish?
Just forget about that.

Now the problems that i have to face.
All my siblings, even relative and all my friends knew about him.
I really don't know how to face them.
When they ask me about him, what should i say?
I don't know. I don't know. I don't know.
Someone help me please.
Teach me what should i do.

I AM SO DOWN.....!

Up & Down

2010-07-14T20:08:00.004+08:00

Last 2 days ; 12 July 2010, he came and find me again.
He went to my school with his friend ; Sada ; and makes me so nervous.
I don't know what the purpose he went there.
We just chat for about few minutes then he back.
Afternoon, we went to watch Eclipse again at Alor Star Mall.
Well, i doesn't enjoy the movie anymore as i just watched it last few days.
But i do enjoy watch with him and sat beside him.
After that all, we went to have our dinner and continued by snooker then back home.
From the bottom of my heart, i really so happy.
He was much more gentleman that i expect.
He open the car's door for me, help me everything when i need to.
How mush i wish that we're stay in the same town.
What to do?
I appreciate every seconds when i'm with him.

Yesterday.
He told me that he will busy for this few days.
Well, i am wondering what does he busy for?
Busy until don't have time to send me a message or even a call.
I don't know.
What i know is that I MISS HIM so much and his voice.
I told myself that not going to disturb him.
Cause i scare that he will feel i am so annoying.

Today.
I was so down now.
Just now morning mom and stepmother went to my school as my teacher asked them go.
My idiot teacher complains about me.
Said i'm late to school everyday.
I am sleep in the class.
And show them my results.
WTF....!
I was like hot till..................................
I admit that i do sleep in the class but not only me.
Everything end up with , mom quarantine me, ask me not to go out.
On the other hand, he didn't contact me for whole day.
Cause of those stuff, i'm down for whole day.
I wanna tell him.
But.............................
I text him.
He didn't reply.
Even phone him also couldn't get through him.
Until just now.
He message me told me that something happened.
I don't know what's going on.
So worry about him.
I'll only pray for you, my dear.
I Really Miss You.

F**king Bored ; Don't Know What To Do

2010-07-11T00:52:00.003+08:00

I am F**king boring now.
Don't know what should i do.
Just finished watch Eclipse (Twilight 3) with Kent , Diane and her boyfriend ; E'Heng.
Hmmm....
Not bad.
Quite enjoy watch Edward and Bella kissing there.
Makes me desperate.
Well, I'm quite miss him ; Mr. Chicken now.
I keep on look at my phone is there any message from him.
But NO..!
He having his supper with his friends.
Honestly, I am not really know my feeling towards him.
Is it just a fresh feeling?
Or the so called LOVE?
Or maybe i miss him just because i'm bored?
Who knows?
I bet his feeling towards me is also not the love feeling.
Seriously , I'm quite scare myself will fall in love with him.
He was so insecure.
If I'm with him, i don't know when will he left me one day.
Anyway, not to think too much.
And i have to control myself not to fall for him.

A Sux Movie But I Do Enjoy Watch It

2010-07-09T18:41:00.003+08:00

Yesterday.
When i finish school back home, i received a call.
It's Devon.
She ask me go to 17 just for hang out with E'Heng and Lunny.
They wait me for about half an hour there.
And finally i reached.
I was chat with Shen through message.
He keep on ask me where am i and who i with.
I felt a bit weird.
I just simply told Devon that..
Hmmm... I think he will come Alor Star find me.
After few minutes, i came out from the toilet.
I saw a guy walking towards me.
OMFG~~~
It's him.
WTF..!!!
Probably i'm so happy and my f**king heartbeat increase like hell.
I can feel my face so hot on that moment.
SHIT..
I even so happy now ; when i refresh back.
After awhile, Jia Yee and Siew Kai came to 17 to meet us and going to bring him for dinner.
We have our dinner at RED VILLAGE with Kent, Jia Yee, Siew Kai, Shen and I.
Well, after dinner we took decision to go to Butterworth to watch a movie.
The so called Predators.
Sux....!
Wasting my time.
But i do enjoy watch it as he's feeding me the Chipers.
hahahah~~~~~
Went to Penang for our supper.
Lastly, i reached home at about 4 something.
My parents ; especially my dad jump till his egg almost out.
And the Cibai Po ; 2nd sis.
Scold me like hell.
Well, Mom just told me that she's not going to care about me anymore since she can't control me.
Everything was up to me.
I'm damn disappointed hear that.
Anyway, no matter what had happened, for me, it's worth.

It's A Nightmare Again

2010-07-06T23:46:00.003+08:00

Last few days i had a nightmare.
Maybe i was quite tired for this few days, dreamed nonsense when sleep time.
I gave birth in my dream.
Oh My Gosh.
The baby's dad is one of our friend, Steven.
WTF..!!
That's are rubbish.
The fees for the operation is just RM55.55
Even cheaper than a pig give birth.
Once i step out from the hospital, i was so regret.
I don't want the baby.
I don't want to have a husband since i'm still so young.
I just realize that actually now my single life was the best for me.
Maybe i'll change my mind after several years but guarantee not now.

After the nightmare, when i meet the guy, the baby's dad.
I was like so shy why i make those idiot dream.
And also Diane , E'heng and Lunny them laugh at me.
T.T

I Dreamed Of Him Again

2010-07-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

Last few nights, i dream of him.

Mr.Confidence.

I dreamed that he trying to chase back me.

Trying to get near to me ; pull closer our distance.

I don't know why he do so.

And i also don't know why i'll dream him.

I'm not miss him wor.

I miss ma Mr.X , Mr.C and Mr.B much more than him.

I told so many people about that so that it won't happen on me.

I do not wish that will really happen.

Instead, i wish that the one are not him but my Mr.X.

I do agree that i loved him ; Mr.Confidence before.

But.........................................

It's already the past.

Maybe i do miss him but that miss beloved one that type.

As i know actually dream is let us realize the feeling when the thing happen.

Uncomfortable

2010-06-06T01:43:00.010+08:00

My heart now was like...........................
I don't know how to describe it.
I saw his Facebook chat with the girls.
My heart was started to feel uncomfortable.
Even the msg was nothing, it's just a simple conversation.
But I don't know why.
It shouldn't be.
I don't want i am to be.
Help me please...
Please pull me out from this slump
F**K myself....

He = stupid Mr.B

The Day Full Of Plan

2010-06-05T03:13:00.011+08:00

Today was Friday and also the second day Birdy reach Alor Star.
Since Bird was here, we sure will full of entertainment everyday.
Last night i slept on 5.00 a.m. as went to hang out with Kent and Jen them
And woke up at 6.00 a.m. something cause to attend the Chemistry class which started at 8.o0 a.m.
The earliest class that i had ever seen.
I slept for about 2 hours.
When the alarm rang, i was like not going to get up from my bed anymore.
My eyes couldn't open.
Oh My Gosh....~
On the first hour i was damn fresh.
The one who sat beside me was so sleepy and i was like ;
"OMG~ how could u sleepy while the lesson is going on...!!"
At about 9 something , it's my turn.
I felt sleepy like hell.
I didn't "fishing" at all cause i lye on the table and slept.
Hahahahaha.....
No one disturb my nap and i damn enjoy it.
Finally end up with i know nothing about what the SIR said.

After the sleepy class, Diane , E'heng , Birdy , En Yuan , Lun and I went to 8's Curry Fish Head have our breakfast.
We went to snooker once we finish it.
We played snooker whole afternoon.
And the point is i met Mr.B
His appearance really increased my heart beat.
17 it's our next destination.
Hang there until 10 something and went to diane's house until now.
Curious how come i can back so late right?
Uhuhuhuhuhu...
Go into the point.
I wanna back when the clock point at 12.
The problem is i don't have transport and he not going to back home yet.
I was felt like so shameless wanna ask he to fetch me back.
And i promised myself have to reach home before 10 p.m. from now onwards.
Except special case ( for my Mr....)
Until 2.30 a.m. , i really can't take anymore.
If not yet going home, i think my dad will not going to take me as his daughter.
When the time i reach home, i was so nervous.
I don't know what my dad going to do to me.
U know what?
I saw he left the key for me...
WTF...
I was like saw the key as a gold.
Haha...
Quickly get into the house with no any sound and sit in front of my pinky and update my blog.
As today's feeling was damn bad, i wanna drop it down.
Muacxxxxxxxx, babe...
IMYLH.. Good Night

Miss Ng Zeau Haarn

2010-06-03T14:32:00.004+08:00

Last two days i just went back from PG.
I went there by bus.
Mr. Steven Khor was the one who fetch me to the bus station.
And he also the one who makes my bus leave me.
I don't care.
I buy the ticket again which at about 8.45 pm.
As Lim Diane and Wong E'heng was at Pg.
Well, they fetch me at jetty at about 12 a.m.
OMG~..
A little bit regret as i went there become their bulb.
No more Jennifer as she became Jennibulb.
Hahaaha~
The first night we just sat at Green House for about 2 hours.
As we have no where to go ma...
3of us sat there and talking crap lo..
The next day, went to visit Ng Zeau Haarn.
So cute and so small..
I kiss her non-stop.
Coz she got the smell of baby.
^^
Ah Kent was the one who fetch me toi the jetty on the third day.
We went to have Japanese food before i went back Alor Star, here.
OMG~
The meal was really satisfied me.
Satisfaction upon me..

She look at the camera.

Posing..

Me and I

2010-05-26T20:53:00.007+08:00

HAPPY B'DAY to Mr. Theng Hek KENT.
I'm not yet wish her cause purposely going to give him some suprise .
Going to be the last second one wish her since Diane going to be the last one.
Recently all of us was busy for our own thing. No time going to hang out together.
We will be like before , after this.
haha..

Yesterday, i went to visit "niao niao" with E'Heng and Sheng Hao.
Sheng Hao was so desperate wanna see what the "niao niao" going to say about him.
Unfortunately "niao niao" not going to say anything to him cause he don't know what time he born.
But i do.
"niao niao" talk alot about me.
I remember the most is that she said that this year my luck was so normal.
Means like nothing going to happen include my love.
Something like not going to be in a relationship lo.
Disappointed me.
And she said that 26 years old is the best year for me to marry.
So young , man.
Nevertheless, ask me study hard.
GOD~~~~~~~

My Decision

2010-05-23T15:48:00.004+08:00

Just back from school.
Finally my Mathematics and PA paper had passed.

Well, today i think I'd gone crazy.
I keep on thinking of him.
Think that i would change cause of him and many.
And also thinking of how am i going to tell him my feeling towards him.
Tuffff~~~
Die already this time...
Like that gone la...
GONE GONE GONE.
I hold on at there.
And continue think how about if he reject me?
It's okay get rejected.
But how if our relationship have changed to worst?
I hang there.
As a conclusion, i will tell him my feeling towards him soon~
But i know it takes time.
No matter how the answer, i'll just accept it.
At least i TRIED... ><

Jennifer Die Very Ssoon

2010-05-19T21:15:00.008+08:00

10 more hours to go, i'm going to exam..!
Mid-term wor...
I believe that many students hate "e-x-a-m" this word.
I just finish study my PHYSICS for half an hour.
The study feeling was very good.
But really difficult wanna start to study cause of lazy.
Not easy to take the book, put it on table, sit on the table and look on the stupid thing for several hours.

Several times i feel like wanna give up on form 6.
It's really not my standard at all especially science stream.
But i was not able to give up.
You know what?
Mum told me that if i fail to enter University, she not going to pay me to private U.
OMFG~
How could she treat me that?
I also want to study at local U.
But if i really cant enter, what to do?
I also not willing to fail in my exam.
But if it really fail, what to do?
I'll try my best.

By the way, i think i should think what to do after my STPM.Not 100% will fail but 70% will.
WORST...
Really nothing that i can do since i'm still so young.
Impossible that i'm going to be the promoter forever.
Haiz....
Makes my brain so..................................................................................

Not going to think about that already.
Going to cook my Mee Sedap..
wakakak~

Oh ya, last but not least, today Jenn was like happy till flying~
According to my friend, Mr.X ask her about me.
I was really speechless.
He still remember me.
I thought he forgot that there's still a girl named Jennifer exists in this world.

Jennifer Danuskha❤MR. X

Jenn So Proud Of Her 2 Weeks Holidays

2010-05-17T01:23:00.009+08:00

Still the same starter.
Exam is just around the corner.
I HATE exam la.
FUCK OFF.
But nothing to do also no matter i how much i hate it.
This coming Thursday it's my first paper.
Pengajian Am and Chemistry.
OMFG..
Well, i have dropped my Chemistry.
I have no time to study.
Cause of this, i'm going to die soon.
I don't care how my result was.
I pray very hard that not to get the last one in my class and pass my physics.
Really shameless la Jenn always get the last one.
STOP about the stupid exam.

After the idiot exam, we're going to holidays for 2 weeks.
Yeehoo..
Birdy coming back.
I should be happy?
I think sad more la
Well, now i'm thinking how am i going to spend my 2 weeks holidays...
Yeeeheeeeeeee....

How good if real life really obey this equation...!!

L.O.V.E

2010-04-24T23:20:00.007+08:00

Can anyone tell me what does a LOVE means?
The Love that i understand seems like not as simple as the real Love means.
Love should be something that very beautiful.
I Love You...!
Is just like the words that all of us wish to hear from our lovers everyday.
Well, It's easy to speak out.
But it's not easy to lay those words from the bottom of our heart with sincerely .
Instead that, i do strongly believe that most of the girls might faithful to their relationship.
I don't know why guys love to betray their beloved.
They felt they have their own "market" , perhaps. Who knows...?
They'll tell you how much they love you, how much they want you and all the nonsense just to make you melt and be their.
They might able to sacrificed everything for you even their life.
When the time they feel bored with you, on the next seconds, they might changed 360 degree.Oh My F**king GOD...!
You're the Bitch of town, Slut, Mother FUCKER and many.
Well, they never think that they ever fuck the mother fucker that they said before.
A mother fucker is nothing to feel funny with.
F**k a mother fucker its the one that everyone will laugh to him.
Can you imagine how shameless the guy are?

Earth Hour Party

2010-03-29T23:57:00.006+08:00

Last two days i was attend to school for the orchestra training.
Surely i was the singer.
I sang the two song which entitled "I will survive" and "Can't take my eyes off you".
For me, i think not bad la, my performance.

After that, I hang around with Diane and Devon.
Suddenly they said wanna have a bbq party as at 8.30 pm till 9.30 pm is the Earth Hour.
We went to bought the food immediately and reached their home at about 9.00 pm.
Hahaha...
Earth Hour almost finish.
And because of some other interruption, our party was failed to start on time.
Our party started at about 10.00 pm.
A lot people there.
Which are Diane, Devon, Johnking and Jenn.
The smallest party in the world.
At night finally they came ; Kent , Jia Yee ang Yi Jen.
I was quite enjoy.
As fist time i cooked and it taste good.
I kept on singing there.
Purpose is to makes them feel annoying.
Im succeed at last.
Wish to have those party again as soon as possible..

While hanging at Pak Hainan :

She studying.

She online-ing.

No people going to give me a F**K.
Then i self-capturing .

Chik chak..

While on the way bought the food, we found something damn interesting.
Here is it :

She ❤ Beers

I want the bulat-bulat. (◑O◐)

The Butterfly.☘

I'll Pray For You

2010-03-24T23:12:00.003+08:00

Last night about this time, mum received a call.
From my aunt said that my cousin was involved in an accident.
He ride on a motorbike bang a car.
This this is his third time, we not really worry about it.
Thought wouldn't be so serious.
As time goes by, we just realise that it's very very very very very serious.
My GOD...
Through the phone, we'hv been told that both of his leg was broke down.
His head was bleeding and the blood came out from his ear and nose.
Can you imagine how serious?
We immediately rush to the Jitra Hospital to visit him.
When i saw him, he was lying on the bed.
Sending to the ICU for future treatment.
While his mother was tired of crying and almost faint down.
My mind was blink.
No way to cry nor laugh.
I felt so pity on him.
He just 18. Never enjoy the life, yet have to leave us.
On the other hand, how could my 93 years old grandpa accept this fact?
I think he will go together with him.

Well, I stayed at the hospital with cousin them until about 4 something in the morning.
While my cousin calling his name in the ICU room, tears came out from his eyes.
His heartbeat was increased.
He still can sense it.
I believe he'll get our wish too.

On the next afternoon, back from school,
i being inform that he was sent to Penang's Hospital for an operation.
hhhuuuuuuuhhhhh....
But then there's only 50%-50%..
Either he gone or he still alive but in coma.
Nothing can do with it rather than pray for him.
Anyway, here his group.
Encourage to join it. THX...

Pray For Him.

Aℓσηє αт нσмє αgαιη ಠ_ಠ

2010-03-20T01:40:00.004+08:00

Alone at home again.
Mum and sister went to Penang as they going to pay the last respect for one of my aunt there..
She was in peace now.
She was sick and got stroke last few years.
Since she never appreciate her own life, she had to go at such young age.

Well, feel quite bored right now.
As usual, i promised myself to study tonight.
But then the same.
FEEL LAZY...
Really no medicine for lazy people.
They'll trying their best to find the worst reason for them to keep on LAZY.

Just now morning when having my CHEMISTRY class, i really couldn't concentrate at all.
My mind keep on thinking about the stupid things.
What will happened on them? What they have done and everything.
The stupid question and imagination keep on spinning in my mind.
Arggggsssshhhhh...
I spent my 2 and a half hour learning nothing.
Finally i make my decision is to sleep.
Sleep is better rather than thinking about them.
I don't want to think about them anymore.
Please GOD....
Get away those thing from spinning on my mind.
I don't want to CARE anymore.
Nothing concern to me.
I HATE the feeling.
Seeeee....
Now i'm alone, and i the thing appear on my mind again.
WTF.....
You better get lost before i F**K u...

DyDy started to EMO when mum not here... ><

Good Night...
IMU, MrX

Solomon Kane

2010-03-13T01:51:00.004+08:00

Well, just finished my movie titled SOLOMON KANE.
Look at the poster, pronounce the tittle, makes me feel curious about the story in it.
And i expected that the graphic would be damn nice.
After watch it, just realise that i'm totally WRONG.
The story was suck.
The graphic?
OMG~ Just like the cartoon which watched by the child.
Disappointed me.

Before the movie, we went for snooker.
While snooker-ing, i saw someone.
Oh My Dad...
It's Mr.Self-confident and Mrs.Self-confident in the town with their Ferrari...
Mrs.Self-confident keep on looking at me.
And i never gave her a F**K...
Hehehehehe....
I just act like i don't have any self-confident,
but then i'm 100000000000xtimes better than them.
Wakaka!!!
Talking nonsense.. SS again

Other than that,..........
After movie thought that will hang out with my fellows them.
But then from about 5 something told me that on the way back to Alor Star.
Will give me a call when reach here.
I keep on looked at my phone.
No miss called or even a message.
I phone till thousand times no people answer my call.
Well, I just realize the feeling that people never ANSWER MY CALL.
At least let me know what happened so that i can stop calling and worrying.
Anyway, just forget it.
Stop here..
Gone to BED~~

DyDy's Girlfriend Died

2010-02-24T22:55:00.003+08:00

Last night, sis brought Dydy to 17 to hang around with his friend.
When Dydy on his way go in the car, his girlfriend saw him.
As it too excited, it rush to the car there.
Sis accidentally knocked it down.
So pity... Even it's only a roadside dog. It still so young and cute.
It used to find DyDy every afternoon.
They played around.
Sometimes Dydy inside the house, it will wait dydy at outside.
They'll even sleep together with the door between them.
Just within a few minutes, i saw it lay on the ground and blood everywhere.
I can't stand anymore.
My tears almost cause my house flood.
I was damn sad and really felt PITY on it.
If Dydy not going out, then it not rush to the car there.
Everything will not happened.
Dydy it's the one should blame on to.
Instead that, perhaps its a good things that it die.
Too suffer to be a roadside dog.
Maybe it will born to be a human later on.
Who knows, right?

Anyway, DyDy will miss You..... Enjoy youself in heaven.

Happy Chinese New Year 2010

2010-02-22T20:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2010...

2 weeks did not upgrade my blog.
CNY... Busy hang around with my fellow friends.
We hang out everyday. Not even miss a day.
From two or three days before CNY untill the 8th day of CNY.
HORRIBLE...!!!
Damn enjoyed...
Once woke up open my eyes took the phone and contact my dudes.
SYOK-nya...
But the "syok" days pass so fast.

Well, last Saturday i went to play the paint ball with Kent Teoh them.
Initially i thought that sure be very painful and tiring.
And nothing "syok" also.
But finally it's do.
There's only 3 girls and about 30 boys.
We got 5 groups there.
While dividing the group, everyone refused to get same group with girls.
uhuh... They look down on girls, man.
You make a BIG mistake.
We played 4 games.
First game we lost as no experience.
My sacrificed a lot in the first game.
My buttock turns red as the result the enemy hide at my back and keep on shoot my buttock.
SHIT. One attack in front and the other at back.
I keep on shoot in front one and the back one keep on shoot me.
WTF.....!!!!
Then i keep on shouting... Haha..
Damn pain la...
At the continuous games, we won except the last game.
The last game they played tricks.
That's why they won.
It's OK...
We never give them a F**K..
After the game, we all tired like hell.
Most of them back home for rest.
Well, we wont wasting our time for rest.
We have second round some more.
Wakakaka!...
Went for Ebox, karaoke.
Wasai....
We're 18 what.

P - L - A - Y ____ F - O - R ____ L - I - F - E

The Day before it and The Day After it

2010-02-06T13:04:00.004+08:00

The first day of MSSK was damn wasting my time.
As i was there whole day but my event was not on that day.
Fortunately Devon was there. At least got people talk with me there.
I back school after that.
Well, my classmate celebrate 6 of our classmate b'day.
I was one of the b'day girl.
Very enjoy to play around with them with the cream on my face.
Run here and there. Shout here and there.
Feel like actually i'm still very young can play around like a child.
Here come the problemsssssssssssss...................
After the first day of MSSK , i just realize that how important plugging is.
Very shy if don't know plugging. But i really don't know.
Finally my schoolmate tough me plugging lo.
Not really expert but also can la.
On the next day, Devon and Diane tough me.
OMG~ I'm scared high and very scared to jump water.
But nothing to do. I have to plug also.
While my turn to swim, i plug quite style also ma.
Hiak hiak hiak...!
But finally also lose ma. Expected.
They all have their own coach. Me?
"shen me dou mei you"
Hahahaahahahahaha....
The purpose i take part actually is to get the 17 extra marks in my curriculum.
It's really helpful to me. Maybe i can enter U much more easier after this.
I got it. I got it. I got it.

Last but not least, thanks my dude who tough me plugging...
I just realize that actually u are very good...
Muacxxxx...

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MSSK..

2010-02-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow going for MSSK....
arrrrssssssshhhhhhhh......
Take part in breast stroke 50m.
Sure will get last. All my competitor is a good swimmer what.
How am i going to compere with them? haizzz....
I won't care if i'm in the last place. But really don't know how to face them.
Just now all of them (my classmate) planning to go to UUM to support me.
Actually i'm quite hope that they'll go...Can play and hang around there..
But better don't la... Then finally canceled..
.....................................
Pleaseeeeeeeeeee......!
Don't put a high hope on me , dude...
Makes me so sweat..... Mentally sweat..
Anyway, i'll try my best la...
Don't laugh me if i'm lose....
Please... I beg you.... haha

Ma BLACK day

2010-02-02T14:57:00.004+08:00

Damn unlucky today... SHIT
Early in the morning, bang other people's car...
The car never stop after i bang it. Amazing...
She should stop the car and claim with me. She doesn't
Her car seems like nothing. But my "cute cute" car leh got a little bit thing lo.
After that, went to school.
Initially so happy as the prefect didn't stop my car. Means i'm not late
But then after parked my car and on the way to my class, stupid SIR stopped me.
Said i'm late several minutes wor.
I told him the reason i'm late.
He not believe me and copy down my name. OMG~~~~~
Why not believe me? Am i look like a LIAR?

Well, forget about that since already used to it.
After recess time VALERIE told me that few of her classmate was gossip about me.
WHAT THE F**K...
They're boys , you know...
Can you imagine a boy such "kepo"?
Behave like a girls and even more worst than that.
So good in front of me. Like nothing happened.
But talk about me at my back.... Idiot
The fire ran through my head once i heard it. Feel like wanna slap them.
Tried to relax.. Think before i make decision.
Slap those people makes my hand dirty. Not worth.
They are really stupid buffalo person and the worst guy i ever met.
Nothing to describe them. They're too free and nothing to do.
Feel like wanna vomit saw their face.
Well, i'm going to warn them by tomorrow.
Don't too over, dude.
I'm good to you doesn't mean you can do anything on me.
Yeah ! You know i'm talking about you guys. OVERSEA guy...
FUCK OFF... Behave yourself.

A.V.A.T.A.R

2010-01-31T16:03:00.006+08:00

Last 2 days went to Pg with schoolmate ;
Valerie, Khai Jian, Eddy and Er er... haha
Actually didn't plan anything.
After tuition Val ask to go wor... Then ma go lo.
Since im the most free person in the world.
Our main purpose went there it to watch AVATAR.
OMG~ no regret watched there.
Damn love the story especially the graphic.
OH YA... Auther ; Val's ex..
Met us there... erm... not bad la
Much more handsome than how i expected.
He and one of his friends watch with us also..
Well, After the movie, we went to J.co to have the ice cream there..
While on the way, i'hv lost.
Don't know where they gone to. Left me there and my phone was out of battery.
So pity me.. Walked here and there. Didn't even saw their image.
The shop lot there almost close all.
Shopping complex getting darker and darker.
I have no idea dude. Scare.....!
Finally have no choice have to borrow from stranger.
So paise la wei...
While borrowing , they feel like suspecting whether i really want borrow or want to steal.
No choice.... Malu pun kena la..
Im damn "kek ki".. They enjoy their meal at Mc Donald.
WTFFFF..... Geram tilllllll............
Start our journey at 12.00++
Reached at 2.00am... Yishhhhhhhh

Yesterday @ Last Night

2010-01-23T13:21:00.005+08:00

8.00 am start my Chemistry class. Bored and Sleepy.
I fall asleep at least 2 times there. Really can't overcome it.
Once after my class, went to fetch Ms. Diane since she wanna go to my sis salon to perm her hair.
I wait her for about 45 minutes. sweat.....
After perm and everything, i send them to the wedding dinner place.
I just like a driver for them.
At night, we went to IDOL cafe... haha...
There Wii available for us.
Because of wanna break the record, i keep on play play and play.
Shout there.. Any emotion.. Don't care the other people there.
Finally we got it. Haha... The best partner of us ..................... Ms. Jenn and Ms. Diane.
Broke the record finally.
Happy till speechless and felt so satisfied.
At night Jen and Jia Yee meet us there.
We chat a lot... Any have out enjoyable time there..
At night, we web cam "kou li kou li".. haha...
Took a lot picture some more... ><
\

Waiting..!!!

Sis salon..

I
LOVE
Hang
Out..
><

Stupid Experiment

2010-01-23T12:36:00.005+08:00

Thursday, 21 Jan

I was kinda lazy to school.
Once i woke up i see the clock its already 7.14 am.
Then continue sleep since absent better than late.
About 10 something, Kai Jun them phone me and ask me MUST go to school
Cause today have an experiment which is group.
What to do wor? Just went to school lo.
Huaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh.....
The experiment really drive me crazy.
Our experiment its about "Sound Waves"
We have to hear the pitch like a stupid people.
And the idiot sound makes all of us headache.
After the 3 period of the experiment, the sound keeps on spinning in my head.
I asked them whether they still can hear the sound or not!
OMG~ All of them have the same situation as mine.
That means i'm normal la.
I'm wondering.....
I don't know why would the engineer could survive with doing the stupid things.

While experiment...

By the way, recently one of our classmate was look so upset.
I don't know what happened on her.
She not going home after school. Willing to sat in the class alone.
Quite worry about her since our school its a boy school.
Well, she got told me about what problem that she face.
Family problem. After i knew it, i feel a bit pity of her la.
Feel that i'm actually quite okay.
No need to worry anything but just concentrate in my studies.
Anyway, hope YOYO will happy soon and concentrate in study..

Pra-U-2 DELTA will always give u a mentally support....

We're a HAPPY FAMILY

Mr.X Vs. Him

2010-01-16T22:24:00.007+08:00

Tired today. 12.00 pm to 2.30 pm Mathematics class.
Continued by Physics class from 3.30pm to 6.30pm.
Terrible! Im tired till couldn't describe.
After the stupid class, hang around with Diane and Von.
As usual, we can chat anything just only 3 of us.

Our OLD friend. Mr.SIAO

Yesterday, Diane and me went to Georgetown just to hang around.
Chat here and there.
The point is that we chat about "him".
Diane told me a lot about him.
Maybe i'll feel happy if she told me few months ago.
Now, the thing just mess my brain.
Keep spinning here and there all the time.
Makes me can't concentrate in the class.
I'm felt so sweat. What he have done really disappoint me.
Once i woke up in the morning, the words start to spin in my mind.
I think of him. But when i continue to sleep, i dream of my MR. X..
haha.... Speechless..!
This was the third time if im not mistaken.
My heart beat damn fast. I don't know why.
I dreamed that we're in a good relationship.
So happy. Feel that i got everything on that moment.
I don't wan wake up. Just let me stay in my dream forever.
But still have to face the facts la.
Flash back.
Last time i dreamed that we're holding hand walking here and there.
Again i felt i own the whole world.
Anyway, even it's just a dream, i'll feel so satisfied.
I never expect i'll get anything from you.
You'll miss me when you're free, it's my biggest wish.
Wish that i can dream of him tonight and the rest of my night...
Muaxxxxxx...
I MISS YOU so much.

Just Get Off

2010-01-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

School already started for 2 weeks.
Well, i never miss a day for late to school except absent to school.
Hold on !
I got my reason why im late.
Not because i woke up late wor.
B'coz of the stupid traffic jam.
I don't know who think of this idea.
But what i confirm is that this person its really stupid.
Normally, traffic light is to prevent the road from jam ma.
This traffic leh, make the road worst and jam all the way.
Feel so ANGER think about it.

About my studies.........
still the same TERRIBLE.
Physics and Math i think its okay.
Really worst for CHEMISTRY
especially the Organic and Inorganic Chemistry.
Difficult + Lazy = DIE
Really MATI lo wei..

Just know i just argued with sis.
My Godness.... Her attitude is just like......
Speechless
Well, recently her's laptop was with her's bf.
She have no laptop to online.
That's her business la. Her problem.
I can borrow her.
But she didn't appreciate it.
Then i just "say" her ma...
She cried.
I have no idea why she do so.
Actually i'm purposely. So long i wait this chance.
This is what she should get.
Everytime when i asked something from her,
she'll show me her F**king bad expression too..
Similary, im looking for this chance damn long already.
Finally here its comes...
Yes, sometimes she treat me not bad.
Can buy for me what i want.
But then is just sometimes ma. Most of the time won't la
I hate the most of her is she like to control me more than my mum.
OMG~
Who are you? You're just my sis.
Nothing to do with you. You also not better than me.
Even worst than me.
I never give u a F**K how u treat other people with ur idiot attitude
But u better don't with me.
I won't try to suit you.

Stop here... Feel a bit wasting my time and energy write about her here..
But its really...
I really can't take her no more..

Ist Day School-ing

2010-01-04T02:33:00.002+08:00

Last day, Jenn and Kent just sent Birdy to the bus station.
As we sent her up her journey ma.
wakakaka~ a bit happy sure a bit feel sad.
Happy is that i have no partner here and will concentrate on my studies.
This is also the reason what i felt sad for.
Im talking nonsense lar...
Beside that,
Today it's the first day we started school after the holidays.
Well, I was late for the very first day.
I woke up on 7.30 am and reach school at about 8 something.
Damn sleep and i off my phone.
That's why the stupid alarm didn't alert.
Our class was changed But still remain the same floor.
All the upper 6 class was at the same floor.
hahaha !!!! sweat sweat sweat. Same floor with "them".
I'm gonna be anti-gravity again.
Just as usual, we cleaned our class room.
The guys swept the floor and even mop the floor.
Well, Jenn walking around there.
My job is to looking job for them.
wakakaka~ i hate house work.
I continue slept till night once i back from school.
Oh ya, our result for last year end of year examination had came out.
Fortunately im not the last one.
Quite a distance from the last. I'm No.8 out of 14.
haha... Its enough for me. At least i passed all.
But then my averange its only 1.58. Damn terrible.
Anyway, wish that i really could enjoy my school life
since its last year.
And also study lar, Jenn...
STOPPPP thinking about ponteng.

Merry X'Mas

2009-12-27T01:20:00.004+08:00

MERRY X'Mas....
WOw.... A lot to write here...
Well, i just realize that actually there are my friends reading my blog.
From now onwards i have to think before i write on this blog.
Recently.......................
I'm so friend with my dude.
Dude means my "belen" group.
I don't know why sometimes so good with them
but then sometimes totally no friend at all..
Is it this is the way we make friends?
A bit weird, dude..
I really hope that we can friend like now till anytime.
I'm not dare to say "till the end of time"
Maybe those words too impossible lar...
HNG...! Don't think too much, slut...
Just FUCK OFF....!

I'm just back from PENANG, babe..
Not bad. Quite enjoy. Even thought going with family.
The main purpose i went there is to attend my god bro's wedding.
And also shopping... wasai
I bought a lot of clothes also lar.. hehe
The next next day after the wedding was X'Mas.
Actually i expect nothing will happen on that day.
I mean nobody will countdown with me.
Maybe just sit at home and watch TV.
Fortunately my cousin's there.
Cousin bring me to F.A.M.E and mix together with friends.
Not bad la. Even they a bit "mature"
I quite enjoy and act like an ANGEL on that night.
Such enjoying night, manatau got such stupid idiot person fighting there
We never give them a fuck. Continue enjoy our night.
Till the next day, OMG~~~~!
My leg is just like not mine. I can't feel it anymore.
Anyway, i also shopping from morning till night.
Such a wonderful X'Mas i wont waste it.

The wedding night..

Muka baru bangun tidurrrrr

Nothing to do

Gonna end up here.. Lazy to cerita ady..
I got the memories its enough..
as the words goes by
"It's my wish larrr" (we got the tone)

I
Miss
You
!!!
Hope u know that i do.

My 18th Birthday...!

2009-12-15T01:34:00.003+08:00

My 18th Birthday had passed...!
Don't know i should happy or sad.
I'm get older..
Well, i celebrate my bday at Penang.
We stayed there for about 3 days.

1st DAY...!
We start our journey at about 2 something.
We wait for one of our friend, Jen for about an hour.
My GODness~~~~...
Since all of us in happy mood, so..... nvm la...
We reached there about 4 pm.
Our first destinstion was Time Square.
Kent said wanna see the house there wor.
So went there have our breakfast at White House lor...
After our meal, we looking for hotel.
sweat... we spend about one and half hour for looking the hotel.
Most of the hotel was fully booked.
Even Gurney Hotel, G Hotel , Flamingo Hotel and Evergreen Hotel.
We went to E&O Hotel asked for the rate.
MY GODDDDD~~~~
The cheapest room rates is how much u know?
Let u guess 100 times u also won't get it right.
Its RM1000.00....
The room rates is count by using USD not RM..
sweat.... We looked at the catalog and smile to each other..
hahahaha....
Finally we went to RED ROCK HOTEL...
Even a bit "palia"...
But then its ok la, still gt bath tub and gt space for us to walk around..
We bath and rest for awhile before we went out.
Well, already about 11 something we just wanna left the hotel
Have our dinner sumore.
Finally we reached MOIS for about 12 something.
Not so many ppl there as it is FRIDAY night ma.
Good also la... Not too pack then we can dance like monkey there ma..
I really do enjoyed.....
I'm not drink so much as i can't.. Im easily drunk;
I drunk that night... so sweat...
I can't even walk back to the hotel room.
I hate the feeling that's why i hate alcohol.
After awhile im awake like a dragon.
Play around... Become "active"

Lobby of REDROCK Hotel

3 Pretty girls in the CLUB.... 'shameless'

So sweet... The SMILE

Teacher LOO and Jenn

Damn Girl.... You're a SEXY BITCH...

I rather to be a SEXY BITCH than a UGLY BITCH

Tryna' to act sweet.. Failed

2nd DAY..!!
The meaningless day.
We woke up at about 12 something and checked out at 1 something.
Bird went to cut her hair.
After that we keep on looking for the hotel room.
Today even more worst.
Every hotel at Tanjung Bungah there was fully booked.
What The Fucked...
After that we spend our time at Gurney.
Redbox till night..
Oh ya, i "cut" my cake there...
And shopping till the shop closed.
At night we went to have the steamboat.
Damn hot.... I hate it...
And the whole body and even the hair was damn smelly.
Then we back to the damn far hotel..
Dunno what's the hotel name.
but then not bad la...
4 star... Got golf club sumore..

My 2nd Cake...

The 3rd DAY....~
The last day, we spend our time at QueensBay...
Have our breakfast at Fridays..
And wasting out time walk around there...
We start our journey back here at about 10 something.
And reached here at about 11.

Just woke up....

In the hotel's fitting room...

Woohoaaaa.............
Love the time we all hang together..
Even there's happened something that unhappy.
Take it easy....
Take it as a lesson and remind me to be careful next time...
Anyway, Thanks You All, My Friendssssss..........
Celebrate mt bday for me...

muacssssxxxxxx

Home Home Home

2009-12-01T21:42:00.003+08:00

Last nite TOY came back from Penang.

His bday today sumore.
We went to airport jz to hang there..
We shout and sing as loud as we could..
So relaxing~~~
But then ,
There's a lot of stupid mosquitoes.
We get bite like crazy there.

They pee there....

Im stranger....

Their post so sweat...

My God~~~~!!!
Bird ant Kent them at Penang now wor..
I really can't sit probably now..
Pity me.. Left me here.. haiz..
Actually they asked me go along
but i can't cause of some privacy reason..
My body here but my heart was with them..
I can't imagine how enjoy they are lor...
I wish u all not enjoy anymore..
HiaK HiaK HiaK... hng~

Flamingo's Night

2009-11-26T15:41:00.004+08:00

Last two days, went to PG..
No idea the purpose we went there..
Kent, Bird and Jenn meet
Diane and Jia Yee and Jen there.
My God My God!!!!!
6 of us got in one car.
Couldn't describe the "pack"...
But we enjoyed ma... We "jin"
We stayed at FLAMINGO hotel.
All of us pack in one room sumore..
But the room able to fit in abt 15 people la..
We played bluffing whole night.
Well, i always lose..
And get punishment.
The most cruel punishment that i remember is
they asked me not to talk.
MY Godness!!!!!!!....
U're killing me if ask me not to talk.
Then i kept my mouth shut whole night lo...
haixxxxxx.....
We really didn't sleep whole night..
Damn tired..

After pray pray

At the place where we pray..

Their face look so happy... awake

This is how i looked like didn't sleep for one night

Bird face looks like didn't sleep for several months ady...

By the way, i know Diane sure very tekan with what i had said.
Im not going to say the truth.
If give me a chance to tell, i also wouldn't tell the truth.
Not because i don't want tell them.
Just because i don't wanna talk about him anymore.
Instead, u're wrong, my friend..
U said i love him so much till can't let him go.
Nowadays Jenn no more little girl,,
No more last time geh "Jen Ni Hua" ady...
Anyway,
I
LOVE
PLAYING
AROUND !!!!!

Last Night

2009-11-21T00:32:00.003+08:00

I felt so bad last nite..
Argued with mum..
Well, before gone to sleep,
I'm listening to a song tittle "Stranger" .
This song so shit...
Reminds me of him... Idiot..
Makes my tear wash my face whole night..

Anyway, just went to watch 2012 with classmate...
Quite enjoying..
"I'm going to be a pilot.."
This is what i think after i watch it..
Only the pilot need on that time..
I know myself...
Driver also not really can be ady..
Don't say about pilot..

The most important is that
we have started our holidays.
Beside that,
we already get our result of the end of year exam.
I asked my friends how many subject that i have failed.
She replied, should say no any subject that pass kot...
Jesus... Am mi thor for...
There's mentally sweat in my mind...
Anyway, just try it next time...

Enjoying...

2009-11-15T23:19:00.003+08:00

Actually today is the 1st Anniversary of us.

But..........................
Stop it !!!!!

Well, im quite happy recently.
As i had finished my end year exam.
Just like the stupid stone fall from my back.
Once we just finished our last paper,
we went to KFC to celebrate Shean Chin b'day.
Damn happy.
As we played around.
Didn't care our image anymore.

I ate the 4A.. I'll get 4 flat soon?

Act like GORILLA...

Don't know what they trying to do..

Convent of Pra U DELTA

K.S.A.H Alma Meter
K.S.A.H Young Collegians all

B'day Boy and Double NG

Sms Sms Sms...

Peace While Eating~

After the celebration, i went to miss LEE house for party.
Although all of them from Beta class, but i oso do enjoy.
Having karaoke with Ken them till about 3 something midnight.
Damn tired the next day.

About last night, i was perform on the stage during the MPU..
Majlis Pra Universiti
I sang duet with Wen Chen...
We jz seems like act as clown on the stage.
Anyway, im HAPPY...
This is what i want.

Huh? What happened neh?

He beg me to take photo with him..

4 pretty girl on that night... wakaka

Ah Beng and Jenn Jenn..

Mr. Ng and Miss. Ng

Jenn Jenn went to snooker again after the MPU...
The guy that bring me there told me that,
"this is the first time girls date me to snooker"..
haha.....
Well, this is me, Jennifer..
I love to do what i like....
But then oso quite funny date a guy to snooker...
hiak hiak hiak...!

2nd Day Of Exam

2009-11-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

Today its the second day of exam.
My Godness!
On the first day, Sunday,
we only have one paper which is MUET 4.
A lot of essay to write.
HATE IT !!
Just after the exam,
we played the monopoly whole day..
We never worry about the examination.
Haha...
We quite enjoyed, actually.
About today, we just only have 2 paper.
Pengajian Am 1 & 2..
Paper two really sucks...
Just like shit that sending me to hell.
Tomorrow "kok ka cham"
Chemistry 1 and Math..
I better give up !
Go to HELL by myself before the paper send me to...
Pray For Jenn ya...
muacxxxxx !!!!!!!!

Happy ^^

2009-11-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

Today's mood quite good..
Hehe.. Know Why?
Cause' Jenn just bought a new laptop.
Pink Pink some more..
Even it's not Apple or any branded laptop,
but i still do appreciate it.
" initially sure will appreciate ma! "
Beside that, my b'day coming soon also.
uhuh....
Now cheh-ing my brother buy me a sony camera.
OMG! The pink one...
Damn elegant !
I'm gonna have it soon...
Tomorrow it's my first paper
for my final-exam..
I never do any revision yet..
Giving up!
Anyway, pray for Jenn could pass
and not be the last in the class.
an mi thor for...

Broke Up...

2009-11-01T01:55:00.003+08:00

Broke up again?
Of course not me..
It's my pity eldest sister..
Finally , finally and finally
she broke up with her's boyfriend.
They had been went through about 4 years.
A damn long time.
Who know will end up like this?
Really speechless..
I also have no idea,
what to do to make my sis feel better.
But then its ok la..
Just broke up , what.
Maybe will sad for several days,
weeks or maybe months.
Will recover back soon.
As the word goes,
Time It's The Best Medicine.
Sumore we're Mrs. NG wor...
MRS. from this family were happy all the time.
Face the problems with our open heart.
And try to solve it with the best solution.
(o_o)......(*o*)
Beside that, DYDY was sick today.
He vomit for abt 5 - 6 times since evening till now.
So pity for him.
His body temperature damn high.
Yeah!
Have to bring him to hospital by tomorrow.
Going Oi Oi luuuuuuu...

"Have Your Time At MOIS ya...."
Good Night!!

Aiyoyo

2009-10-31T02:10:00.004+08:00

About today...
I was out of my plan.
Initially,
planed wanna go to library with Xue Er and Sue-Leen in the morning.
But then, it's already afternoon when i opened my eyes..
Hehe...
Jenn love sleep ma.
About 2 i reach there.
Cause a lot of peoples there, I really not in the mood of study.
Sitting and chatting there.
Aiyoyo... just wasting my time
We went to Tesco ate Pizza Hut as out dinner.
Meet Jin Bao and Jun Xiang after my dinner.
We hang around with some of our friends.
Well, something makes me so suprise.
I met Ben when i was at ARENA playing snooker.
As i know,
he was not at Alor Star currently.
But then,
he told me that he came back for several weeks jor.
Anyway, i do enjoy my snooker today and my "library lesson"..
Sleep soon..
I really have to study by tomorrow.
I REALLY HAVE TO.
muacxxx...

I
MISS
YOU
!!!!!!!!!!!!

Winnie's B'day

2009-10-31T01:37:00.004+08:00

Last Wednesday, we celebrate Winnie's birthday at Uncle JOHN.
Almost all of Pra-U-1 BETA students.
The only JENNIFER was from DELTA.
haha...
I'm quite enjoy with them.
We make joke around and took a lot of the "stupid" photo..
But then pity Winnie.
Even birthday also no cake for her,
as her grandpa just passed away.
After the celebration, we went to funfair.
It seems like we booked the whole funfair..
Cause no people.
It's a rainy day.
Well, the rain really makes us enjoyed more.
Really couldn't describe our situation there.
Only a word "SYOK-nya"....
haha...
I played the bumper car and also the stupid swing chairs.
The stupid chair really makes the star and the fish bone
spinning on my head.
I hate it.
Promise no next time.
Phewwwwwwwww.........
Lastly,
Happy BE-Lated Birthday, WINNIE.....

Girlsss...

YEAH!!!

B'day Girlsss

My post so weird

Peace again...

2.41 a.m.

2009-10-24T01:53:00.002+08:00

So good Jenn today..
Didn't go out hang with friends.
I'm just like a sleeping PIG, sleep whole day.
Haha.. Damn tired.
I woke up on 1 something in the afternoon.
Once i woke up,
I argued with my mum and sis
with something that they didn't agree with what i'hv done.
They doesn't agree it doesn't mean i have done wrong.
Since i feel that's nothing wrong,
I'll just continue to do what i feel like doing.
Just neglect it.

My mum and I went to repair my car, after that.
Just as usual,
don't know why recently really can't communicate anymore.
Will argue once start chat with her.
No wonder!
Maybe b'cos of my behaviour.
That's why i better shut my mouth up.
After i took my car for repair, i slept till about 10.00 pm.
Friends ask me out also felt so lazy.

Oh My Godness!
Final exam was around the corner.
I haven't do any revision yet.
About few weeks i didn't study.
I'm just like waiting to die.
Haha...
Anyway, Pray for Jenn ya.

3.38 a.m.

2009-10-23T03:23:00.004+08:00

Yesterday (22 Oct) was Ai Pei's birthday.

Since both of us didn't have a lot of friends here,
3 of her unknown friends and me celebrate with her.
We having karaoke at e-box. Quick nice.
We sang from 5 pm to 8 pm.
Beside that, i have a Pengajian Am class on 8pm.
But then, i skipped it as i think long time once, its okay.
Haha.. (just to persuade myself)

After that i have my dinner with Jay Min,Jin bao,Shelvin and Xiang them at Fresh.
Not bad. We chatted a lot.
I enjoyed there as quick a long time didn't hang out with such many friends.
After that we went to the temple that having some "function" there.
Oh My Godness!
Its really scorchingly hot there.
A lot of people there.
And u can feel the heat which makes me felt so uncomfortable.
We left there immediately after we pray.

"Here comes my happy time"..................
We went to Bali cafe hang till now.
We chat a lot, we played a lot and we do laugh too.
I do enjoy that time as on that time,
all my sadness and also trouble that should overcome was "released" me.
I didn't think anything but only for play and laugh.
Well, hope my days will go on with such colourful.
Okay!
Wanna oi oi already o...
Muacxxxxxxxx... GOOD NIGHT..

2.12 a.m.

2009-10-12T00:44:00.004+08:00

I just back from Penang as God Bro was having some function.
Well, a bit tired as i have to drive from Penang to Alor Star.
I just drive as fast as the car able to. I
t took about 1 hour to reach here.
Don't know why,
recently i couldn't communicate with mum as well.
We'll argue once we do communicate or have a simple chat.
We have different opinion in everything.
Maybe she's age getting old and love to "jiji chacha"..
I hate it so much.
Sometimes something that not really so important,
she could remind me till thousand times.
Oh My Godness!...
I'll try to accept it as she's my mother what...
Pity Jenn... Suffering... Haiz..
I think i should stuck my ear hole with cotton so that i can live better here..

While just now im driving,
i think a lot.
Im flash back the memories of us.
Well, i think of the feeling of mine while the last time we went to Penang.
Erm... The feeling its quick bad.
I know my mood its damn terrible as i have to leave my freedom an anything.
Beside that, i do enjoy our journey.
Anyway, not going to describe a lot feels like so nonsence.
Alright... gonna sleep.
Later have to go school...
Good Night..

While On The Way

After Enjoyed My BODY MASSAGE..

The Way How I Behave ; Nowadays

2009-10-09T01:14:00.003+08:00

Well, last few days, whole of our family were busy for my brother's wedding. A lot of relatives which long time didn't see attend to the wedding dinner. On that night, i was planned to dedicate a song on the stage which could bring some entertainment for the guests. Unfortunately, the disk that i took there couldn't play at all. I was end up with sang a romantic song ; duet with one of my bro's friend. He gave me a rose too.. I'hv threw it once get off from the stage. He hold my hand while singing. Embrassing me. I let off immediately. By the way, He's not bad actually.... Quite funny and have a cute appearance some more. After the wedding, OMG~ whole family were tired like HELL. haha... I slept for about 18 hours to recover back. But then, its okay , sine my brother look so happy.

About last night. I was dream of him ; an idiot person. Don't know how to describe the feeling. Happy? Yes. Satisfying? erm..... Disappointed? maybe... Pity? Yeah... Well, that's a lot of feeling to describe. I dream that we have a date together. He try to hold my hand while we walked together. haha... Till now i still can remember the feeling of mine while he's holding my hand.... Stupid me... Make me suprise the most was that, i dream of his mum too... What The F**k... As i know, he's mum not really like me. Anyway, im not going to think about that anymore. Yeah! I admit that i wish it could really happen one day but sincere from my heart i don't hope so. As we really not suit for each other. The thing that i wish to happen maybe will satisfy me for a short while. But i know, that's not what i want.... Alright ! Stop here... I'll pray for Jenn's wish wouldn't come true till the end of time... hehe... Good Night

This Is How I Feel

2009-09-30T23:08:00.008+08:00

Well, so long i didn't update my blog. Last weeks was our school holidays. I busy whole week as im work as part time. This caused me have no time to buy my dress for my brother's wedding dinner which held on this Saturday. Im so so so so sad about that. On the other hand, both of my sister bought damn pretty dinner dress. I Love it. But i have no time to get it. Well, as usual, on that day all of the guest will compare three of us. Can u imagine how am i look like compared with them? Oh My Goodness...! I hate being lose by someone especially those who close with me. I know their outlooks was so good. Since i couldn't change my outlook, well, i promised myself i counld't lose them in education, knowledge, income, and everything. I know my mum look so good on my sister especially my eldest sister as she adore her since young. I don't know why. But....... I am your daughter too. Well, i have learnt to be Independence since im young. No matter how tough a girl, still need some love from someone especially from the one that she love. I Love my mum the most. Anyway, hope she will turn back and look at me.

Beside that, last few days, our Sir gave us MUET speaking test. Oh My Godness....! Its really not as easy as u think. So Sweat... While looking for the point and speaking individually, its really nerves. I couldn't describe the feeling. All of our face ran red after the test. Its so damn funny. Well, after that test, i feel that i built a lot of confidence in myself. Didn't feel shy while speaking with others. It's a good thing what.. hehe.. Last but not least, Jenn will be the best among the best after awhile... I'll live in the HELL for awhile. I'll back to the HEAVEN soon... ><

I Had Killed My Heart

2009-08-08T23:37:00.002+08:00

Saturday

Actually today my mood quite good. Just as usual. Nothing happened. But then while im online , with my "luan luan" click-ing, i notice something that i never know. Yeah. I admit, it's really got to let me know that. Well what i know is that actually my H*M already got the girl that he like. So seriously in love sumore. haha.. From that moment, i had make a conclusion. My decision is to kill my heart. Let it pain. I don't care how pain it is. After the painess, i'll have a new of Jenn. This is what i want. He is just nothing for me.. After this blog, there's no H*M exists anymore in my world nor this website. Totally,definetly delete from my mind. I never hate him. I just wake myself up. I shouldn't waiting something that really impossible. No more dream-ing for me. Its really make's me unhappy and make's me think a lot of nonsence. Why i have to live with those bad days wherease he live with a lot of happiness? That's really unfair for me. Anyway, only me can control how my days. No matter what day, i also have to go through 24 hours. Why not i prefer my happy days? Last but not least, my own promises, i swear I Wont Bother Anything About Him. Im Totally delete him. Im serious , this time. The last blog about u. Jenn sending u to HELL... yeehuuooooo

Give Up On U

2009-08-02T02:07:00.006+08:00

Sunday , Raining

No school for yesterday ; Saturday. I just doing nothing here. Tuition at night and back home. Well, today's mood not really good. Something happened on Friday let me feel unwell for several days.

Friends for me its no.1 for all the time. Especially my best friends. I always believe that my best friends won't betray me , won't hurt me as i never think wanna do so on them. I treat them sincerely . I know distance is just like a wall that build between us. That's why i tried to keep in touch. But who's gonna appreciate it? It just wasting my time to do such things.

Friday, i saw three of them again at one of the shopping complex here. Well, i never blame that she's not contact me even she's back here. I never blame them didn't ask me out with them along. But i curious why they wanna lie me when they saw me? Maybe the lies just nothing for them. But it's really so pain. Not understand why they wanna do so. They don't like i join them? But i also won't join them. For before me, maybe i do. But now i understand how a human being behave especially them. I don't know started when they feel don't like on me ; boycott me. What i'hv done wrong? ............ =.= By the way, also thanks to what have u done on me. It remind me many things. At least i understand the meaning of FRIENDS now much more better than before it's too late.

Him? I really don't know how he think. He saw on his own eyes. He understand me, i know. He'll know how i feel. But he just act as stranger than a stranger. He really not care me anymore. Many times i had wish that he could help me when i needed help so much. But my wishes never come true. Yeah! I love him so much. I can't let him go from me. The live without him is just like the night without the lights. Really no choice. Now i realise, there's no turning point in our life. Well, through his msn personal message, i can see that he's waiting for somebody maybe very important for him. So far i know him, i never heard he say so. Anyway, hope the one that he waiting won't disappoint him. "Wish u all the best..... I LOVE YOU..♥!"

No matter how, i have to continue my jouney with my open heart. No one can't live without someone. Me too. I really so look down on me why i should sad because of them? No worth for me to do so. They just playing fool on me. They'll happy when they saw my reaction. I shouldn't. There's Come The Rainbow After The Rain. I'll remember the day ; 30 July 2009 ; Friday.

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The Changes On Us

2009-07-15T17:28:00.015+08:00

Last few days, Saturday, i went to Genting alone... Weird leh? ALone nehx... Not my style leh? haha.... Actually the main reason went there ; is just for relaxing... I already used to be alone right now.. Friend for me is just nothing as they ady take me as nothing. I take them as besties but...... No sincere friends in my life. Anyway, no matter how, i still do enjoy my life. I'll make me happy all the time. I'll live more happier than u do.

Well, Genting is just as usual. I went to the places where i ever hang with him. Nothing changes there.. The chair , the flower , the landscape , even the sand was still remain the same there. But there's totaly changed between us. From the bottom of my heart, i ever hoped that there's nothing changed between me and you. But... Impossible........ Nothing will reverse backward. Especially the love to someone. Anyway, i felt that i really gain a lot after get through the "bad days" of my life...Jenn get more mature and tough. NO MEN NO CRY.... hahaha... NO WOMEN, U"LL DIE. Beside that, I also took photo there.... A lot a lot a lot of photo i'hv took as i love self-captured...

By the way, i also entered the casino... Genting Casino sumore... Nothing special also.. Maybe coz' i don't like gambling. Damn bored inside there.. I feel pity with the money when i saw the way they gambling. Sooooo sweattttt.... Everything just as usual. I shopping, buy clothes and "syok sendiri" there.... haha...

Thus, almost one week Birdy went to MAKTAB , JB... Miss her so much... Before the day she went there, we got gathering at BALI BALI.. When the time wanna back home, she looked upset.. Dunno what happened. But i do enjoy the time with her.. >< I'll Miss You.... All the best for u

Inside The Genting Casino's Toilet !!

Look Like My Mum, Am I? ...

On The Way To Meet Frend

I Still Remember Everything... Do You?

I LOVE YOU

Love Self-captured....

The Venue Remind Me A Lot

Ready To Went Out...

When There's Nothing To Do

I Seems Like Waiting Something Here... But.....

I Enjoyed

Turbulent Of My Life

2009-06-29T01:32:00.005+08:00

Again abt 1 month didnt upload my blog. But no matter how i do promise i'll remember that i have a blog here.. ^^ As usual... This 1 month not few things happend oso la. haha... Abt my stdy leh, erm... not bad... BUt physics really DRIVE ME CRAZY... haha.. so difficult.. it even much more difficult thn what i'hv expect. By the way, last 3 or 4 weeks we went to Langkawi with Diane them together. I really do enjoy as i LOVE beach so much. But somethings that happened that make our trip not going so well oso la.. aiya.. Jz forget abt it. Thus, today really alot things wanted to vomit out. I ady try to pretend ntg for abt few weeks ady. But finally i think once i vomit out i'll get better. ><

Firstly, today i get inform that Birdy get the offer to MAKTAB at JB there. She's the only one of my close frend here.. She's goin to leave me alone here.. How abt my besties??? haha... dissapear frm this earth jor.. haha... Dunno what's going on.... Thy seems like trying to escape frm me. Even came bk here oso never inform me. And talk something to my frend.

So pity... I really dun wan to think abt that. So far, i knw her ady for abt 10 years... I believe she knew me more thn other ppl do. But really dunno wat she thinking. I take them all even more important thn my lover. But finally is wat i got. haha... Im ok... I'm tried to think in positively n jz accept it. Im gonna learn to be rasional. Not childlish anymore. So pity me.... Im thinking how im gonna go on with my life? haizzzzzz.... Conclusion is wat, u knw? haha... No matter how, i oso have to go on with my life... Takan wan suicide? siao geh... Jenn is a friendly person ma... Gv her sometime sure will alot of frend later. haha.... (persue myself since no ppl gonna do so)... In the other hand, im gonna fix up my timetable. So that i have no time wanna think abt that nonsence to kacau me.... yyyyyyyiiiiiiiiiiisssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhh..... Anyway, still the same wordss... "STUDY FIRST"... Since everyone's life sure have their own turbulent.. Thn we should accept it while enjoy it... haha.... STOP STOP STOP.... Stop here ady... Ady talk a lot nonsence.... blekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

While at the Jetty...

Matthew @ Jenn... Cable Car there

On the way.... So tired of climbing...

3 of us... No more, nowadays...

Yeahhhh!!!!!

SMILE

I do it myself wor... Since no ppl goin to do for me..

Memories...

Peace... ><

Jia teach me the pose.. haha

Sun burn-ing....

Bye to LANGKAWIIIIIIIII

The Words From The Bottom Of My Heart

2009-05-17T18:32:00.006+08:00

About 2 months more i didn't update my blog as Jenn went to National Service and just came back last week. Well, within this two month there's many many many many many a lot of many things happened. I went to National Service on 19 March 2009. I really cant accept that I'm selected for National Service. But no matter how, i need to go to the training too. The first day i reached there, i really cant live there. I keep on thinking how i gonna stay there for 3 months? what the F**K... I'm really tension. When the times get longer, i get used to the life there. "If we really accept it, we're feel better". Some one told me before. The first day i went there, i never cry even a lot of girls crying there. I just feel tension and hate to everything there. But, i cried out bucket when the time I'm gonna leave there. I was selected to FORM 6. That's why we are allowed to came back here earlier.

About last month, 12 May 2009, Jenn already become single yet available. haha!... We broke up. Actually, if someone ask me the reason we broke up, i really can't answer. Cos' i'm not really understand why. haha.... Maybe we're not match and should not started our realtionship. Or maybe he no love me anymore, bored with me. I have no idea about that. We never give both of us a chance to talk proberly about out realtionship. We end our relationship within fews msg. Its really not worth. But nothing can do also. haha... Aiya.... Everything had passed. Jenn not going to think too much about that. What im gonna do right now is STUDY. FUTURE UPON JENN. hahah!! Deep leh? hehe.... No choice. Let me concentrate on a thing so that i won't think something that make me feel sad. By the way, i'll still do enjoy my SILGLE LIFE. muacxxxx

This Is how our DORM look like

I sleep on it EVERYDAY

We're ready for KAYAK

Wira @ Wirawati Kem Tasoh

Jenn and Sou Sou playing aroung at Gurney Drive on 9 May 2009

Sou Sou hiao hiao jor... hahah

The Story Get Started

2009-03-13T00:49:00.004+08:00

For about "hundred" month i didn't update my blog. I'm busy for preparing my SPM examination and many more. Well, just as usual. I'hv took my SPM examination which started from 11 Nov 2008 till 24 Dec 2008. Within this few days, the stone that on my back get heavier and heavier. By the way, i just tried my best and take the best result. Within this examination, there's many happened on us! I mean on four of us ; Diane , Devon , Jenn and also Issac.

Don't know from when i feel like i got some "feeling" on him ; Issac. It's so amazing. Don't know what's his "beauty" caught my feeling on him. The "feeling" that i mean, it's really can't describe. It just feel like, i'll feel jealous when he talk to other girl, i'll feel miss to him while he not with me, i'll feel like wanna contact him all the time and i feel like many many more.......... Starting, i do not dare to admit the feeling. When the time get longer, i really cant 'tahan'. I'm a person who can't keep secret even it's my own big secret. Thus, i told my best of the best friend ; Diane about everything. She told me she felt so. OMG~ I'm getting scare. Scare he will know, and also scare after he know the truth, we can't be friend and stick together like before anymore. In the other hand, he thought we have secret that can't tell him. Well, he asked me once i got up from my bed. He argued on that morning. Without thinking twice, i told him everything. He got shocked(i think). The unexpected is that, he told me he got some feeling on me too! Sweat! From the day i birth till now, can say that i never get the thing that i want, that can satiesfied me. This is the first thing! Maybe a good start for me! Well, how i feel? Sure happy la! haha!!!!

After several days, which is 15 Nov 2008, our LOVE story get started. Many of my friends doesn't look good on our relationship. But we never care how they think , how they look us. We just care both of us. Till today, it's already 3 months and 28 days. We go through happy, sorrow, sadness and many type of days. Well, there's many things that we had done together. Such as, we celebrate my birthday together, celebrate Christmas eve together, we celebrate Chinese New Year together and many more. I LOVE HIM !!!!!!! This is the words from the bottom of my heart. Althought we'll argue every now and then, but i know he LOVE me too! Everything that he done, he think of me, for my own good. But, everything i'hv done just will make he feel bad. Maybe i'm the type that didn't have own thinking gua! haha...! Anyway, I LOVE HIM. HE LOVE ME...! This is the truth that i know no matter what will happen on us later on! I miss u, dear!

While We Just a FRIEND

While My Bithday aT Penang..!

New Member Of Us

2008-10-26T12:51:00.011+08:00

Firstly , i would like to Welcome Mr. Issac into our group! haha! Although he is just new for us, but we never felt stranger to him. He was damn funny. Sometimes u may feel hate to him , but most of the time he will make us smile and laugh. This week we never even missed out one day to hang out together. On Sunday, Jenn and Mr. Issac having breakfast at KFC before school. After school , we hang out again at Alor Star Mall and the garden at Desa Seraya there! Its damn interestin there even only 4 of us there!

Sometimes we should act as a CHILD...

This is how he will responce once the dog chase him. wakaka

I need HELP...

On the next day , which is Monday, i skipped (pon) my class to have a swim with them. The worst is Devon skipped his ADD Math paper to hang with us. OMG! Early in the morning, Mr.Issac came to my house fetch me. Then we went to the polluted beach at Kuala Kedah there. Wah! The beach was damn smelly. Even smelly then your shit! W + O + R + S + T.. But i do LOVE there! After went to the beach , we went to Diane's mum shop to fetch them. After that, we went to Pasar Pagi Telok Wanjah haven our breakfast. haha! I ate Kuah Jiap , whereas Mr.Issac ate Hokkie Mee. After having out breakfast, we went for swimming. After swimming, we went to Snooking. haha! I LOVE it. We seems like addicted with it! AFter snooker we still have our plan o! haha! We went to sing K. E-box.. Our second house. wakaka! one weeks abt 3 times there! haha! After e-box we tired like ikan bilis.. haha! then Back home jor!

Eating my Fav. Kuih Jiap.. Damn delicious!

Mr.Issac's face after having his breakfast whereas Diane's face during she "working".. muahahahaha!

After swimming! Ready to snookerrrrrr... hiak hiak hiak

Wow Wow! Pretend like Jenn is the Professional! wakaka! Actually know nothing

About Them

2008-10-16T03:32:00.003+08:00

Within this few days, i got some news which me, myself also don't know that's good news or bad news. Maybe good , maybe not. Yesterday, i knew from my mum that he's going get married soon! I get shocked once i heard that. Disappointed? I don't think i am. Jealous? Impossible. Anyway, no matter any feel on me, i still need to pretend nothing on me. The first thought of me is that he still too young. Only 20 years old. It's not the married age yet. But, that's non of my business. Make me proud of myself is that i did not take it as a business. I just forget it automatically after awhile.

Next, just now Diane told me that he (other he) already couple with a girl. While she told me, my heartbeat was damn fast. It feels like my heart going to jump out. But after i knew that i also did not felt anything. I think maybe i have already used to it. Even how much i like him, i also did not get any reply. By the way, i just realize that actually i am not fall for him. I fall for his ...(shshssh!!! secret).. haha!

Instead, just forget about them. I did not find any interesting talk about them. I write this blog is just to take it as a part or my memories. So that, i'll feel how childish am i when i grow up one day. Okay! STOP here! Gonna sleep! It's already 3.15 am. Good NITE!! muaxxxx .. LOVE JENN

Story That Touches My Heart

2008-10-05T15:16:00.004+08:00

He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys were after

her, while he was so normal, nobody paid any attention to him. At the end of the

party, he invited her to have some coffee with him, she was very surprised, but

being polite, she promised him. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was

too

nervous to say anything. She felt very uncomfortable, she thought, she would

want to go home....

suddenly he asked the waiter. 'would you please give me

some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee.'

Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still, he

put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously; why

you

have this hobby? He replied: 'when I was a little boy, I lived near

the sea, I like playing near the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea,

just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty

coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my

hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there'. While

saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched..

That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can

tell

out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home,

has responsibility of home. Then she also started to speak, spoke about

her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice

talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.

They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets

all

her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was

such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty

coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess

married to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And,

every

time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee e, as she

knew that's the way he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: 'My

dearest,

please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I

said

to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so

nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt It

was

hard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought that could be

the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times

in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to

lie

to you for anything..

Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like

the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste.. But I have had the salty

coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for

anything I do for you.. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my

whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you

and

have you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffee

again'.

Her tears made the letter totally wet.Someday, someone asked her: what's

the taste of salty coffee?

It's sweet. She replied.

Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear

but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!

Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one

you like will leave you for the one they love.

Find one, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he

cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, '...that's
her.

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Its My Character, Sagittarius

2008-09-20T20:02:00.001+08:00

SAGITTARIUS WOMAN

A tall slim and graceful woman who walked proudly like she is walking in a
beauty pageant competition. If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely
covered it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step.
She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world
positively, so her face always seem so happy. She will not get up set
easily.

Self confident woman who belief in her own style. She will not follow
fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. She is a very
open person, sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never
try to cause troubles for any one.

She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say
something so pleasing at the same time. Example she may say "I wish you
could make more money, so you could afford better cloth, but anyway it is
better this way. If you make more money you could be thinking of money too
much and become greedy". She can say such thing and make you wonder if you
should get up set or love her more.

She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be
protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect to a weak man. If
she try to over powered you, then you have to calm her down and try to
control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if
she respect you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear she says " Guess what I
will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she
is thinking out loud like a guy. If you do not understand her in this
matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love
life as another funny story.

She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for
some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can
easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine cloths,
good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac
will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if
she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of
let her borrow money, think again.

She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about
getting marry and lost her freedom and so on and on. A jolly woman who loves
sports. She is an ordinary woman who could dress like a tomboy. She has more
guy friends and sometimes could act like one of a guy. She does not care
about rumors, so she can get home very late and couldn’t careless what her
neighbor will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know
it yourself , so you should not bother what people think.

Her wit and innocent look are her charms. She is often hurts from love, but
never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one
more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will
not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say
something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will
admire you.