Saturday
Actually today my mood quite good. Just as usual. Nothing happened. But then while im online , with my "luan luan" click-ing, i notice something that i never know. Yeah. I admit, it's really got to let me know that. Well what i know is that actually my H*M already got the girl that he like. So seriously in love sumore. haha.. From that moment, i had make a conclusion. My decision is to kill my heart. Let it pain. I don't care how pain it is. After the painess, i'll have a new of Jenn. This is what i want. He is just nothing for me.. After this blog, there's no H*M exists anymore in my world nor this website. Totally,definetly delete from my mind. I never hate him. I just wake myself up. I shouldn't waiting something that really impossible. No more dream-ing for me. Its really make's me unhappy and make's me think a lot of nonsence. Why i have to live with those bad days wherease he live with a lot of happiness? That's really unfair for me. Anyway, only me can control how my days. No matter what day, i also have to go through 24 hours. Why not i prefer my happy days? Last but not least, my own promises, i swear I Wont Bother Anything About Him. Im Totally delete him. Im serious , this time. The last blog about u. Jenn sending u to HELL... yeehuuooooo
08 August 2009
02 August 2009
Give Up On U
Sunday , Raining
No school for yesterday ; Saturday. I just doing nothing here. Tuition at night and back home. Well, today's mood not really good. Something happened on Friday let me feel unwell for several days.
Friends for me its no.1 for all the time. Especially my best friends. I always believe that my best friends won't betray me , won't hurt me as i never think wanna do so on them. I treat them sincerely . I know distance is just like a wall that build between us. That's why i tried to keep in touch. But who's gonna appreciate it? It just wasting my time to do such things.
Friday, i saw three of them again at one of the shopping complex here. Well, i never blame that she's not contact me even she's back here. I never blame them didn't ask me out with them along. But i curious why they wanna lie me when they saw me? Maybe the lies just nothing for them. But it's really so pain. Not understand why they wanna do so. They don't like i join them? But i also won't join them. For before me, maybe i do. But now i understand how a human being behave especially them. I don't know started when they feel don't like on me ; boycott me. What i'hv done wrong? ............ =.= By the way, also thanks to what have u done on me. It remind me many things. At least i understand the meaning of FRIENDS now much more better than before it's too late.
Him? I really don't know how he think. He saw on his own eyes. He understand me, i know. He'll know how i feel. But he just act as stranger than a stranger. He really not care me anymore. Many times i had wish that he could help me when i needed help so much. But my wishes never come true. Yeah! I love him so much. I can't let him go from me. The live without him is just like the night without the lights. Really no choice. Now i realise, there's no turning point in our life. Well, through his msn personal message, i can see that he's waiting for somebody maybe very important for him. So far i know him, i never heard he say so. Anyway, hope the one that he waiting won't disappoint him. "Wish u all the best..... I LOVE YOU..♥!"
No matter how, i have to continue my jouney with my open heart. No one can't live without someone. Me too. I really so look down on me why i should sad because of them? No worth for me to do so. They just playing fool on me. They'll happy when they saw my reaction. I shouldn't. There's Come The Rainbow After The Rain. I'll remember the day ; 30 July 2009 ; Friday.
No school for yesterday ; Saturday. I just doing nothing here. Tuition at night and back home. Well, today's mood not really good. Something happened on Friday let me feel unwell for several days.
Friends for me its no.1 for all the time. Especially my best friends. I always believe that my best friends won't betray me , won't hurt me as i never think wanna do so on them. I treat them sincerely . I know distance is just like a wall that build between us. That's why i tried to keep in touch. But who's gonna appreciate it? It just wasting my time to do such things.
Friday, i saw three of them again at one of the shopping complex here. Well, i never blame that she's not contact me even she's back here. I never blame them didn't ask me out with them along. But i curious why they wanna lie me when they saw me? Maybe the lies just nothing for them. But it's really so pain. Not understand why they wanna do so. They don't like i join them? But i also won't join them. For before me, maybe i do. But now i understand how a human being behave especially them. I don't know started when they feel don't like on me ; boycott me. What i'hv done wrong? ............ =.= By the way, also thanks to what have u done on me. It remind me many things. At least i understand the meaning of FRIENDS now much more better than before it's too late.
Him? I really don't know how he think. He saw on his own eyes. He understand me, i know. He'll know how i feel. But he just act as stranger than a stranger. He really not care me anymore. Many times i had wish that he could help me when i needed help so much. But my wishes never come true. Yeah! I love him so much. I can't let him go from me. The live without him is just like the night without the lights. Really no choice. Now i realise, there's no turning point in our life. Well, through his msn personal message, i can see that he's waiting for somebody maybe very important for him. So far i know him, i never heard he say so. Anyway, hope the one that he waiting won't disappoint him. "Wish u all the best..... I LOVE YOU..♥!"
No matter how, i have to continue my jouney with my open heart. No one can't live without someone. Me too. I really so look down on me why i should sad because of them? No worth for me to do so. They just playing fool on me. They'll happy when they saw my reaction. I shouldn't. There's Come The Rainbow After The Rain. I'll remember the day ; 30 July 2009 ; Friday.
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