I Had Killed My Heart

Saturday

Actually today my mood quite good. Just as usual. Nothing happened. But then while im online , with my "luan luan" click-ing, i notice something that i never know. Yeah. I admit, it's really got to let me know that. Well what i know is that actually my H*M already got the girl that he like. So seriously in love sumore. haha.. From that moment, i had make a conclusion. My decision is to kill my heart. Let it pain. I don't care how pain it is. After the painess, i'll have a new of Jenn. This is what i want. He is just nothing for me.. After this blog, there's no H*M exists anymore in my world nor this website. Totally,definetly delete from my mind. I never hate him. I just wake myself up. I shouldn't waiting something that really impossible. No more dream-ing for me. Its really make's me unhappy and make's me think a lot of nonsence. Why i have to live with those bad days wherease he live with a lot of happiness? That's really unfair for me. Anyway, only me can control how my days. No matter what day, i also have to go through 24 hours. Why not i prefer my happy days? Last but not least, my own promises, i swear I Wont Bother Anything About Him. Im Totally delete him. Im serious , this time. The last blog about u. Jenn sending u to HELL... yeehuuooooo