F**king Bored ; Don't Know What To Do

I am F**king boring now.
Don't know what should i do.
Just finished watch Eclipse (Twilight 3) with Kent , Diane and her boyfriend ; E'Heng.
Hmmm....
Not bad.
Quite enjoy watch Edward and Bella kissing there.
Makes me desperate.
Well, I'm quite miss him ; Mr. Chicken now.
I keep on look at my phone is there any message from him.
But NO..!
He having his supper with his friends.
Honestly, I am not really know my feeling towards him.
Is it just a fresh feeling?
Or the so called LOVE?
Or maybe i miss him just because i'm bored?
Who knows?
I bet his feeling towards me is also not the love feeling.
Seriously , I'm quite scare myself will fall in love with him.
He was so insecure.
If I'm with him, i don't know when will he left me one day.
Anyway, not to think too much.
And i have to control myself not to fall for him.